cheers to molls, i just think she’s cute! cause guess what? julia allison would like, never totally ever, LIKE be real about anything. micro-weblebrity is fleeting, annoying and managble. look at that twat perez hilton. spending the majority of the day boasting and pretending that one is happy and then pouting depressingly when one is not - JA and other pathetic bloggers tweets serve as nothing more than an annoying cloying reminder that someone finds them clickworthy.
I’m legitimately worried about her. She is obviously in a downward spiral since leaving Defamer, and it’s reflected in everything she does. Her persona has swallowed her actual personality, and it has made her videos boring and filled her blog with pictures of her making pouty duck faces. Plus, she looks like hell, because she’s drinking way too much. She would have all sorts of words about that last statement, but I’ve seen it happen to friends of mine.
This is painful, because I have always liked molls, and I want her to succeed. But at best she is stagnating and at worst she is disintegrating. So think of my unfollow as tough love. Get a hold of your life, molls.This is really really like, deepish and the kind of thing I would probably think about myself if I wasn’t myself because like, ya know… I control this blog and I control the way that you guys see me and not even I have been 100% comfortable with how I’ve been coming across because well, I’m not 100% comfortable with my life. But, um… physically? I think I look OK, actually. I’ve actually never been more comfortable with my personal appearance. And I only really drink three nights a week, which is average for my age. And ya know… I think that maybe we can all find some comfort in the fact that even someone who seemed to always be on top of her own world a few months ago is now having somewhat of a hard time but that I do really believe that my future is bright as hell and that things will turn around.
To those of you who have watched me change and let me do it without leaving me: thank you. Thank you for letting me evolve the way I need to. For anyone out there who resents me for these changes, well… I’m sorry I can’t deliver the goods you’re looking for, but that’s how much of a non “micro-celeb” or whatever I am. I’m not some untouchable or special person in reality or in my own mind. I’m hitting quarterlife and trying to plan my future in the middle of the hardest time that we’ve all seen in our lifetimes in a field that is laughably insecure to most. So… yeah. I promise that they won’t have to delete my Facebook because I’ve committed suicide and I promise that I’m still the same person you used to follow, I’m just dealing with a whole new set of issues and like any living, breathing person, I don’t know how to handle them all gracefully.
I’m just trying to be honest with you guys.